April 1- April Blogging Challange

This is my April 1 post a day late because... Easter. How do I feel at this moment? Well to be be quit honest, I feel cold af, and not in a good way either. The temperature just decided to drop 40 degrees from one day to the next, but that's Texas for ya. Besides cold, physically I feel energized because- coffee. I never used to be a big coffee drinker, in fact I actually hated the taste of coffee for majority of my life. It wasn't until I spent the Summer with my grandparents in El Paso two years ago that I actually got "hooked". Now I kind of have to have it every morning. I don't like being so dependent on a substance but I for-real get withdraws when I don't drink it. So here we are. No one said it was a good thing, but hey there are worse things I could be hooked on right? So Yeah coffee got me hanging on right now. Other than that, I feel good physically. About to chug some water because one of my insta mama friends reminded me that I need that and I definitely have not been drinking enough lately.

Mentally, hmmm. My mental state isn't as splendid. My mental state is so much more complex. I feel like I'm on a roller coaster ride mentally to be honest. With lots of highs, lows, and plateaus. Right now it's strange. My allergies are fucking with me but I can't complain cause other than that Im in good health. I feel like I'm the ring leader of my own little circus, or gang possibly. lol and sometimes I'm like damn this is a good show, everything going great but then other times my circus tent catches fire and I'm like shit.

There are so many things that I want to be doing and I overwhelm myself at times. This is one of those times. I'm just proud of myself that I keep on going. Overthinking will forever be my biggest fopaux. No matter how hard  I try, I just  can't break it. It's draining, it really is, but also i feel like 95% of people have this issue so I know It's probably just human thing, but Im very envious of anyone who's mastered silencing their mind. Any way I'm feeling at the moment good/bad goes back to the mind. So If I can channel positivity at all times I'll be well on my way to greatness.

Thanks for reading
XOXO Jaz