9 Months Pregnant

I'm officially 36 weeks pregnant now. Maybe even 37? Which means I can go into to labor pretty much any day now. I can't believe how fast this time went by. I'm usually dreading being pregnant by month 9, but this time around I don't even mind waiting the extra few weeks.

I'm not sure if it's because It didn't really set in that by the end of the year I would be a mom of 3 until well into my pregnancy. Or it could just be the fact that I've been kept so busy by a toddler and a 4 year old that I haven't really had the time to process it all.

Either way, this baby is coming whether I'm ready or not. In my two previous pregnancies I felt so prepared mentally and physically. This time around I just don't feel that way at all.

I'm kind of nervous, I do admit. People are used to me being this ultimately confidant pregnant women who can push a baby out like nothing, but I'm not sure how to get to that point in the few short weeks I have left.

I'm not in the headspace for giving birth at the moment and it's kind of starting to worry me.

I truly enjoy the entire process of giving birth, so I'm hoping to be able to shake these feels and get my head where it needs to be.

I'm going to try watching birth videos and reviewing a lot of the books and coping positions that helped me the first two times and maybe that will work. I'm just really hoping that when the contractions hit, that natural instinct will kick in and I'll be launched into birth mode.